so much for not expecting so you won't be disappointed.
its not as if the feeling will go away if you try ignoring it.
its a classic example of how you can feel so happy and yet so crappy at the same time.
feeling so happy for her and yet, you feel like shit because of how you make other people around feel. you just disappointed everyone around you, if only you had done a little better, then others around you would feel truly happy. stupid girl. why are you such a let down? disappointing people around you all the time. not living up to expectations. people just stop caring and start giving up. there are even times when you yourself feel like giving up. feel like you're all alone, cause you don't want to go to anyone else, lest you're bothering them.
maybe the world will be better off without...
but it is in times like this, when you just want someone to say that they love you and that everything will be ok.
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